I face a challenge in knowing how to proceed with work that I do. I do healing work; I've experienced amazing results, I've learned incredible things and have knowledge about what I am capable of when I put my mind and body to work together to move energy. I started this work with Spirit Guides. I was very sick and didn't know how I would survive. I had been experiencing grand mal seizures for eighteen years of my life, and I have come to believe that because of a specific path of healing that I followed by instruction of Spirit Guides, I was able to learn how to move energy in my body; I became healthier, and the seizures stopped. A lot of the things that I was guided to do were ceremonies of traditional medicine people; African Shamanism, First Nations, and the sequence of events that led me to partake in these ceremonies is nothing less than mind blowing for me; a phenomena.
I have chosen to try and find ways to share what I have learned about energy and healing. It has been so difficult to be out in the world with these gifts. People go crazy. People mistrust me and judge me and make up all kinds of opinions about me; because I say that I know something about this, People want or expect things from me, they watch me to see if I will behave in a certain way, they test me and make debates about spirituality... but for me it was never like that. For me it's just like another job that I learned how to do, but a more important one, one that can really help people, one that is spiritual and purposeful and healing. I don't know how I can do this as much as I like to without getting paid, or somehow having a revenue to allow me to live in this world the way it is and still have a medicine practice; to offer what I have without being told every time I do something that I have to do it a certain way so not to offend or mislead or take advantage of anybody. I just don't know what to do. I am burning potential but it's like because of it, in ways, I am still burning at the stake.